Never Thought I'd Make It This Far

by A Patch Of Blue

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1.	I've Denied Myself Everything I Truly Desire 03:07	lyrics
I've been wondering what it'd feel like to die, will i still make it past twenty-five? trying to hold on to the present, simple joys to keep me rooted. Anxiety & depression try to roll up on me I've got friends & family as unreliable as WebMD, nothing more than a fragile soul with poor self-esteem. Suffering from illnesses and pondering the time i could not redeem.. exhaustion and needles became a daily routine. I'm Malaise... I am suffering... I'm drowning in forlorn waters of fatigue, gasping and grasping at frigid feet. Closure's a foreign word for desperate men as they lay petrified in bed. I've been wondering what it'd feel like to die, will i still make it past twenty-five? This world has 7 billion people.. and yet I'm still all alone..
2.	Never Thought I'd Make It This Far 03:23
3.	My Soul Is Full Of Anime Girls 03:57	lyrics
Positive thoughts and meditation were nothing more than placebo medication most nights are spent alone ... coiled in regret.. I reflect back inside my despondent inner self before you left me discarded and disregarded on this worn out shelf When I'm coffin-bound, buried six feet below the ground Don't bother mourning me. when you never bothered to stick around life never goes my way, I'm just a waste of space those same words you ushered into different wooden homes hollow like the creaking in the floorboards broken like the glass windows pathetic and lethargic, I'm a nuisance left all alone my hubris cloaks a frail psyche trust no longer dwells inside as the sweat; as the chills.. travel down my brow & spine gritting my teeth I was left to compromise with an absent god I had cast aside this world is screwed up , I'm living on borrowed time and those memories we've made and enjoyed before , I'll ignore because it's evident they won't mean a damn thing in the end out of sight, out of mind those same words you ushered into different wooden homes hollow like the creaking in the floorboards broken like the glass windows pathetic and lethargic, I'm a nuisance left all alone those same words you ushered into different homes

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released October 20, 2017

Produced/Mixed at JSM Studios

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